Thursday, November 24, 2011

Mama.. the title

Pregnant.. again. Alhamdulillah. It's been almost 24 weeks now. Belly is getting bigger. Hmmm... and yet undefine emotions is coming in to me. Anxiety.. Worries... Excited.... I saw my baby on ultrasound scan. It's so wonderful when I saw my baby move and doing the thing baby do... Nothing can describe how I feel. "Baby, mama waiting for you patiently, hope you will grow up fine and healthy." " Mama's precious gift"

Saturday, November 19, 2011

I Should try this Focused Meditation

This is an article i got from How To site.....

Practice Focused Meditation

By , Guide
Updated May 17, 2006 Health's Disease and Condition content is reviewed by the Medical Review Board

This type of meditation involves focusing on something intently as a way of staying in the present moment and turning off your internal dialogue. Many people find this type of meditation easier to practice than classic meditation where you focus on nothing to quiet your mind. With focused meditation, you can choose to focus on almost anything that involves the senses, including sounds, visual pieces, tactile sensations, tastes and smells, and even the your own breathing! Here’s how:
Difficulty: Easy
Time Required: 5 to 30 Minutes
Here's How:
  1. Choose a target for your focus. The sound of a metronome, the smell of incense, or a pleasing picture are all popular choices. (If you need more ideas, here’s a list of things you can turn your attention to.)
  2. Get into a comfortable position, and relax your body.
  3. Turn your attention to your chosen target, and take in the sensation it provides. Focus on the sound, smell, sight, etc. and simply experience what it has to offer. The idea is not to think about it, but simply to experience it, being fully present in the moment.
  4. If your internal voice starts to analyze it, or begins to rehash stressful situations of the day, worry about the future, make a list for grocery shopping, or anything else, gently turn your attention back to your chosen target and the sensation it provides. Let your mind stay quiet and clear.
  5. If you find your mind engaging you and realize that you’re not being fully present with the sensations of your chosen target, don’t let your inner perfectionist beat you up for ‘doing it wrong’; simply congratulate yourself for noticing, and return back to the present moment and the sensations it has to offer.
  6. That’s it. It may sound a little strange or difficult to understand as you’re reading this, but as you practice this type of meditation, it will become easier and make more sense. The more you practice, the more benefits you will experience. Enjoy!
  1. Give it time. Meditation often takes practice. If you’re expecting to do it ‘perfectly’, you may actually create more stress for yourself than you relieve, and you won’t want to stick with it.
  2. Start with shorter sessions—like five minutes—and work your way up to longer sessions—like 30. With practice, this type of meditation becomes easier and more effective.
  3. If the experience is frustrating for you and you don’t really want to continue, you may find more success with other types of meditation like the Karate Breathing Meditation.
What You Need:
  • Some quiet, private time.
  • Comfortable clothes.
  • A willing attitude and an open mind.

Thursday, November 17, 2011

Couldn't sleep

My day off today, and I took a long sleep this afternoon, and now I just can't sleep. Anxiety? Some..

In this modern life, a lot of things becomes issues in everybody's life. I mean, there's a lot of things that became important and became necessity in peoples life. Examples, transportation, medical bills, insurance, secured job, etc etc. While if I was in the ancient age, I don't need insurance, transportation? medical bills? Really.. I think that's why people in the modern world so stress out and depress. Actually, that what's going on in my mind now. I should prepare for a lot of things. (I'm stress)...

Friday, November 11, 2011

Problems with Focusing and concentrating...

I have some problem with focusing my mind, or concentrating on certain things... So I took the time to surf around in the net to find some tips that are useful for me. And I found some tips, I got them together to share with others.. This tips were post by   ...

Clear Your Foggy, Fuzzy Thinking

Have you ever been in a fog during a meeting with your boss, or have trouble clearing your head during an important talk with your teenager? Fuzzy thinking can intrude when we least want it! This simple exercise will clear away those fuzzies when they occur. Learn how to take a quick break, get re-centered, and focused:

1. Stretch your whole body while leaning gently left, right, back and forward. Be sure to stretch your toes.

2. Stand with your feet a comfortable distance apart and bend your knees slightly.

3. Focus your mental energy on your third eye. Focus on a simple image of a ball of light. Still your mind, think only on this ball. Keep your focus on it until you see the ball of light clearly.

4. While looking straight ahead, bring your hands together, cupping them toward each other without touching, in front of your chest. See the ball of light there between your cupped, parallel hands.

5. Holding the ball of light, move your hands in front of your belly while still standing straight.

6. Slowly move your hands and the ball of light up your body to your forehead/third eye. Inhale deeply as you do so and let the light pervade your mind.

7. Move the ball of light and your hands back down to your belly as you exhale.

8. Repeat this process three times or more.

9. At the last inhalation, release the ball of light. It fills your mind with energy and clarity.

10. Relax. Get to work!

8 Tips to Focus Your Mind

Mental clutter, hyper-mind, head on overdrive—we’ve all been there. Here is some soothing relief.
Try these simple suggestions for slowing things down. Your concentration and memory will improve, you will gain greater perspective on your life, and you’ll be able to think more clearly and with less effort.
Learn to relax your mind as you relax your body, to reap the benefits of less stress, and gain a more calm and mindful awareness of the present moment. You will be surprised how easy it can be.

1. Witness your thoughts. No one can stop thinking entirely; it is impossible. If you start trying not to think, you only end up thinking about how to stop thinking! What you can do, however, is to withdraw from your thoughts and become more of an objective spectator.

2. Picture your mind as a blank canvas or a dark sky. Allow your thoughts to come and go, but resist the urge to follow each one. Your brain will eventually slow down and you will feel less pressured.

3. Count. If you find it difficult to let go of your thoughts, try counting slowly as you breathe. Watch your thoughts and try to resist following them. Turn your attention to the count as you breathe out.

4. Pay active attention. As you work and think, try to keep your attention on the task at hand. Be strict with yourself and each time your mind wanders, return it to the task. As you keep refocusing your attention, your “mind stillness” will improve.

5. Still your body. One sign of fragmented attention is fragmented movement. For example, when you are at the theatre, it is easy to tell if others around you are fully attentive to the performance. People who sniff and sigh, move their heads this away and that, and wiggle in their seats are having some difficulty concentrating. Rapt attention is usually accompanied by still body posture.

6. Find a comfortable position and don’t allow yourself to move. Concentrate on what you are doing or watching, drawing your attention away from physical distractions, and focus your thoughts on your task. After a while, you will notice that you fidget less and feel less physical discomfort. You are now channeled into mental exertion.

7. Interest your mind. Try to find interest in projects to help you concentrate. Taking up a new hobby can be a tremendous help. You should also try to find something interesting even in the dullest chore. If you are at a gathering, find someone and start a conversation. Be inquisitive and you might discover you have similar interests.

8. Open the mind. Just as strength, stamina and flexibility must be incorporated in your physical routine, the mind needs new and absorbing challenges to give it a change from its everyday journey. Notice something new on the same way home that you might not have noticed before. Buy a magazine on a subject you normally wouldn’t look at, read it, and open yourself to new possibilities.

For people who have problems similar to mine, these are few tips we can apply.

a qoute:

"Man's mind stretched to a new idea,
never goes back to its original dimensions."

Oliver Wendell Holmes



Wednesday, November 9, 2011

perasaan ku....

Semalam,,,, terasa terharu dan sebak sangat. Semalam aku menangis dengan sebaknya di sebelah suamiku yang tidur nyenyak. Semalam, terasa diri ini bertuah sangat, kerana dianugerahkan cinta seorang suami dan akan dikurniakan seorang bayi (InsyaAllah). Kerana aku merasakan aku tak layak untuk semua rahmat yang Allah berikan, kerana tiada suatu kebaikan pun yang aku rasa berbaloi untuk dianugerahi sebegini rupa. Namun, Allah Maha Besar, Allah Maha Pemurah, Dia memberikan apa-apa yang Dia mahu kepada sesiapa yang Dia inginkan. Ya Allah, sesungguhnya Engkaulah Tuhan yang Satu, dan Engkau mempunyai kekuasaan mutlakterhadap makhluk ciptaanMu. Ya Allah, aku bersyukur kepadaMu dan syukur dan puji adalah hanya kepadaMu.

Thursday, November 3, 2011


Looking for inspirations to write, or waiting for one.... Hmmm.. Need to increase my reading materials. I have lost a lot of time of not reading. I used to read alot of things. But now, I guess life just gained into me. Heheheh Funny?? Guess so. I think I'll start reading other funny blog or something. In real I like thrillers and ghost stories. Ghost stories?? I guess I've grown up, ghost stories became a bore to me. But I still have interests in thrillers and suspense.... hmmmmmmmmm Puzzle is best.

Saturday, October 29, 2011

Start another blog.

I just thought of an idea to start another blog. I want to upload catalogue of things I sell, and photo of things I sell. Then I think of wanting to start another blog, about my favourite animal - cat. Heheheh.. I want to take pictures of them and post it to the blog. Hmmm so let see hoe it goes.

Friday, October 28, 2011

A lot going on in THE HEAD

how am I going to earn more than RM 500K in 5 years??? Or maybe I'm just dreaming. Money is not the upmost most important in my life, but I need the money for a lot of things. Heheheh... I just want to remind myself why I want so much money:
1. I want to give my mother a life that at ease and she can do anything she wants.
2. I want to payback the loan I took from the bank.
3. So I can have my own business and then manage my personal life at ease without having to split my life into office hour and house time.
4. Lastly, so I can give my home town community a hand for the infrastructures they lack.

Now, must try to remind myself, that I'm not looking for luxury, I'm looking for an aspect that I can help my life and other. Maybe you will think it's ridiculous, but for me it's my personal goal.

aku punye pre rancangan......for saturday and sunday

pagi................bangun awal
pagi.................sarapan (heheh wajib)
pagi................kemas2 bilik, kemas2 rumah
pagi/tghari....... tolong kat dapur, belajar masak
tghari/ptg.........buka meja kat tepi jalan jual2 kuih/ barang/ anything.........................

Does blogging consumes a lot of time? Some blogger made it look likes it so easy and doesn't consume a lot of time at all. Gimme idea pleaseee

Thursday, October 27, 2011

hmmmm.. dah jalan dah

ok.. arini dah jalankan bisnis muruku and keropok.... boleh laaaa... caiyok

Tuesday, October 25, 2011


Just helped my hubby with advertising. Share his ads on the FB over 100 pages I put up the ads. Hopefully this will help his marketing a bit.


waktu sekarang ni, aku tgh gile nak berbisnes. Namun, skg aku tgh mengandung, aku kena slow. Lepas tu, i'm a bit of absentminded. So help me to remember. Nak start bisnes walau sekecil mana pun. heheheh

Monday, October 24, 2011

jual beg???

terasa nak jual beg plak.... memang suka sangat dgn beg..... suka sangatttt


My first step toward an organized world of mine..... Hmmmmm....

Saturday, October 22, 2011

catatan apa yg dipikirr

Tiba-tiba terfikir idea, buka satu booth di kedai suami.. cuma di sudut je... buka satu booth jual topup,, barang2 katalog,,, and other things yg diikirkan boleh dijual..... heheheheh ... tak bagitau Ayang lagi.. pikirkan dulu

Friday, October 21, 2011

doing and not doing

I'm pregnant. But I feel I want to do a lot of things. Actually, I'm a bit worried if I'm too active. Lost a child once due to unknown cause. I really want this baby, and at the same time I have a lot of things I want to do. A lot of things I want to achieve. But I have to restrain myself because I have to take care of my body so that I won't be worn out. But then I have to plan for the things I can do....... Hmmmm suggestionss pleaseeeee....

Thursday, October 13, 2011

morning.....(move slow motion))))))

What happen  to mee.... I can;t wake up early in the morning... it seems so hard to move my body out of the bed every morning........ i want to sleep and sleep and sleep.. but anyway............

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

jalan penyelesaian..........???? mana...

Banyak betul yang berlaku kebelakangan ni. Entah lah. Dugaan harian. Namun, aku tak nak tersangkut tang tu je. Aku nak berjaya juga mencari keinginan aku sendiri. Kejayaan aku sendiri. Tapi di mana idea. Di mana jalan????? hmmmmm Ingatkan aku.. Ingatkan aku... Ingatkan aku... Ingatkan aku.....

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

falling from out of nowhere

Today, my husband told about an opportunity that I've been waiting for. But then somehow I'm not ready for it. Even though it's not a REAL CONFIRM opportunity, but still it's the one I've been waiting for. But I'm not ready. What should I do?? 

Sunday, July 24, 2011

little life

I watched few tv shows today. Entertainment. There were these girl band from Korea, then theres this talk show of these Malaysian artists, and then there's this gossip show about Malaysian artists. I used to indulge in those kind of shows. Now, these things I watched look so silly to me. It just created to fill in some blanks in the tv show or someone's pathetic life. But then, it occured to me how about my life? Is it meaningful enough? Have I put almost 100% effort into my life?? I'm still pondering and wondering.

Thursday, July 14, 2011

inspiration is hard to findddd~~~~

I have so many ideas,,,, but the thing is inspiration to create the idea is hard to get.... wanted to write some book, but didn't go anywhere. Stuck in the middle of the journey. Hmmmmm... inspiration inspiration come to meeee

apa kena???

Hmmm ape kena ni???semua tak jalan... semua tak jadi........  tunjukkkan jalan... berikan kekuatan.....

Thursday, July 7, 2011

what colour i want???

Got tired, and fed up with my environment. People says that "One is responsible for their environment". Really??
I'm so bored. Where can I 'paint' the 'colour' I wanted to my environment??? What colour do I want? Really.... Where should I start? Which corner? Too much of question.

Environment I'm in now, the colour is bleak and grey. I want it to be more colourful, bolder, and brighter. I must put my mind into it.....

Monday, July 4, 2011

Friday, July 1, 2011

apakah aku berani??

Apakah aku berani untuk mencuba mencari sebuah kerjaya yang penuh risiko?? Teringin sangat bekerja sendiri dan tidak hanya makan gaji sahaja. Ingin membuktikan keupayaan sendiri...

Wednesday, June 29, 2011


Not so busy but so many things coming at one time. Hmmmm.... my hand are aching. Hmmm should I take leave??? I want to have a nice holiday...... hai yooooo

Monday, June 27, 2011

happiness that long lost and i longed for.....

I thought I've moved on and have started anew. I am so wrong. Each time I see a pregnant woman, or a new born baby, my heart ache. I was once almost have my own baby. And during the time of pregnancy I was so overwhelmed and it was the happiest moments in my life. It felt like dream. I just couldn't believe I was conceiving. No one knew how happy I was in between believing and unbelieving. Oh Al-Mighty God, only You understand how I feel now. I really want that happiness back.

Friday, June 24, 2011

Housewife Blogger: Do you make love?

Housewife Blogger: Do you make love?: "Do you call it making love? The Husband and I have never uttered a sentence with the words 'make love' when referring to sex. We find it ..."

Thursday, June 23, 2011

Head ache heart ache

I just don't understand. There's just so many little conflicts that make my head ache and my heart ache. I won't know if it will ever stop.

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Recycle babeh

I love this planet. What can I do for this planet? Recycle. Let's just recycle old news paper and magazine. Let's start doing it.....

Pemimpin yang penakut

Aku nak kata lah.. sesungguhnya kalau sesorang tu penakut, tak yah lah nak jadi pemimpin,,, kalau tak ade keberanian, hanya akan menyusahkan orang lain. Bukan sedikit orang yang disusahkan. RAMAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII....  Dunia penuh dengan orang yang tak tau kemampuan diri . Hanya nakkan kekayaan tapi menyusahkan orang yang di "bawah"... Tapi biasalah, manusia tu bongkak dan tamak. Apabila sesuatu yang buruk berlaku pada suatu masa pada suatu keadaan, pemimpin yang penakut itu akan menuding laa jari ke mana2 arah yang dia nak... kemana2 orang yg dia nak... Mewujudkan apa2 alasan yang dia suka,,,, PEGI DAHHHH....
takpe laaaa dunia ni sedetik je... tunggu laa di akhirat nanti... jadilah org yang dipertanggungjawabkan dengan kerja yang KO buat tu.... (kes ini paham je laa .. berlaku di mana2)

Tuesday, June 21, 2011


Help me to be more patient. I just couldn't help what I'm feeling and thinking. But I really want to be someone that has high rationality and patience. Show me the way please.


Annoyed with someone... someone is a liar...  annoyed.... ANNOYED......

Monday, June 20, 2011

home based business

My brain is pouring with ideas and passions of doing business. Must do it,,,, must do it.... :) Let's start it small. Let start it simple. Must do it. Must do it. It's a learning experience. It's a start. Everything must start somewhere. Yee haaa!!!!

Sunday, June 19, 2011

time tido

Aku penat. Setelah sepanjang hari dgn aktiviti mengecat tingkap dan aktiviti rutin lain, terasa amat penat. Namun demikian, aku baring di katil dan menutup lampum taknak lena plak mata ni. Otak ligat berpusing tanpa henti. hmmmm. Aku hendak mula bisnes sendiri. Aku hendak mulakan bisnes sendiri. Aku kena yakinkan diri sendiri setiap hari. Di mana harus aku mulakan???  Apakata mula dengan kerepek. Untuk aku kumpul modal. Pas tu baru aku boleh memulakan bisnes kain baju aku. Mari kita cuba. InsyaAllah boleh. Satu lagi aku kena sediakan plan strategi dan plan jangkamasa dan juga jadual waktu.... betul2,,,, hehehee

so many things... so less money ..(what am I saying)

I wanted so many things, and need so many things, but there so little money. Where can I dig up some gold??? heheheh

Friday, June 17, 2011

what to say, how to say it, when to say ....

I just don't know how to say what I'm feeling inside. Actually I'm really scared of making myself looking selfish or stupid. But if I don't say anything I'm just making myself miserable. Should I say it? or not??? Talk.. talk.. talk.. but no understanding??? where can we go from there?? where can we go from there??? HARD...

Aduhai malasnyeee.....

Di mana akan aku cari kekuatan untuk melakukan kerja dan mencapai impian aku. Hmmmm... Siapa tak nak rajin bekerja,,, sapa taknak mencapai kejayaan.. semua aku nak ,, tapi Ya Allah,,, susah nya nak gerakkan sendi2 di badan ini... mcm semua tu berat sangat... mana .. mana nak serap kekuatan.... kalo mcm cerita cina atau cerita jepun boleh transfer aura tenaga tu kan best... karang aku minta suami aku transferkan aura kerajinannya kepada aku.... heheheheheh

Sehingga bila aku nak mcm ni.. aku tak nak.. aku nak jadi yg terbaik.... terbaik dan penuh semangat .... GO GO POWER RANGERSSSS... hhehehheheehh

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

in loveee,,, then you'll cry

It's not a negative statement. It's something true. True story of me. Never in my life I would cry for a stupid love scene. But then, now that I'm in love... in love with my husband, a simple love scene will really make me cry. :). All the happy scenes of people in love will really touch my heart. Oh My God... Love changes people.. or transform them. Sad?? I don't know. But I love being in love. Because it's great. :)))

where to go?

What if I have a burden that I don't want to bear, but somehow I being burden by it. ( what kind of statement is that) Anyway, there's a lot of thing I want to run away from. But since I have let myself commit to something, I have to bear the responsible.

Sunday, June 12, 2011

always have time for miscellaneous but not priority... (sigh~~~~)

I am a married woman with a job. Maybe it's just me or everybody think that women have a lot at their hands. True?? Maybe?? I don't know, because I just been married for 9 months. I don't know. But I do feel a lot of pressure from myself. Because I am not very good at houseworks, and then I always used up my time for sleep. (Sleeping IS my favourite pastime). So here we go again about me not able to commit to timetable. (sigh~) . What the first step??? Here we go again with the FIRST STEP. Fed up of the FIRST STEP. JUST DO IT (NIKE MOTTO).

Where's my brain!!!! Brain with no function there just NO WAYYY....

Where's the strength!!! HELP!!!

Here we go again... Next time I'll try to write something else that's more ENERGIZE than this kind of posts

my workstation,,,,,

Here this is my new workstation... Need to make it 'smart' looking place ever for me to see,,, hehehehe,,,,. LAZYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Saturday, June 4, 2011

pillow case

My pinch of idea.... Let me make pillow case to sell.... Hmmm Let's try that...... Or I take service charge to make pillow case??? heheheheh

Let's talk moneyyy (sigh~~~)

Well,, today I just want to list down the monthly expenses, big and small... so here we go: members
2. Fuel for my car
3. Meals
4. Prepaid top upsss
5. Hygene stuffs
6. Stationary
7. Tolls
8. Office clubss..
9. Medicine
10. Supplemen
11. Clothing
12. Make up?
what else?????
what else???

Thursday, June 2, 2011

what i''ve read and what've i saw...

I read a lot in the past... and now i've turned my interest to blog. But not as extreme as bloggers. I just want to explore what blog is and people say we can make money by blogging.
But from my observation, my blog has no direction. A clear direction of what I want to write or what I want to say. Honestly, I can say that I'm not as outspoken as I thought I am.
Another reason for my unskilled writing is that I do so minimal of writing activity. I adore reading. Since I got my job, reading is not my activity anymore. Because it took a lot of time to read. But every now and then I try to look for something to read.
And I read this one blog, susie's adventure. Her writing showed how she can put into words what she's thinking of. I want to be like that. Maybe it'll take some practice. :)

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

Bored,,,,, wanna quit.,,,,,./....... hmmmmmmm

Feeling really bored... Life is dull. (Hmmm I think I've wrote this kind of article... Anyway))))
Want to wake up late... want to have time to do my own thingsss.... (((())))) ermmmmmmm.. Shhow me the way,,,, make me stronger...

Friday, May 27, 2011

time management????

time management..... need all the discipline in the world... one cannot do time management if she can't follow the plan... right???? hmmmm My time management is the worst. I have all the clear idea of what should be done... but just couldn't fight the laziness... hehehehe

Where to go from here?? hmmm k.. let's start with a simple task. Let's get up early in the morning;;;;;; can i do that???

ok ok ok

let's talk about something else... hmmm ............................................... no idea... take a rest for awhile... actually i'm really sleepy right now.. but i just couldn't go to sleep yet coz it's tooo hot...

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

pop up in brainstorming

hmmm... here's the ideas that pop into my mind....
1. i want to make 'telekung' with colours... Design??? after this i will pop it into my blog..(so hol on)
2. make 'Baju kurung' for sale... coool idea...
3... make stuffed dolls for sale..

so i should start as soon as possible.... hmmmmmmmmmm

pray 100 times a day i can do it.....


Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Let me bla.. bla... blaa... blaa... and blaaa....

Talking rubbish today.
A lot I want to do in my life starting from today, such learning how to make clothes, bags, learning how to recite Quran,,,, learning how to earn more money...... learning how to make myself more beautiful everyday.. learning how to control my thinking, my mind and my temper... learning how to socialize around with various personalities....... learn learn learn... and ohh... learning how to cook for family..... I want to take photography???? hmmmmm alot a lot a lot of things I want.... The time???????

What's the most serious thing in my/this life???? HINTTTT??? PLEASeeeeeee............
Take me to a guru that tells me WHICH IS THE MOST IMPORTANT.......................HELPPPPPPPPPPPP!~!!!!!!!!!

Monday, May 16, 2011

sad moment

As I was driving home from work today, there's a moment that reminded me of the time I was far apart from my husband when I really needed him. (Sigh~) I just couldn't bear the feeling. It was devastating. No word can express the feeling I felt just now. The time I needed my husband the most was the time I went through the moment of miscarriage. I don't to recall the moment, but every time I away from my husband I get the feeling. It felt bad....:(((((( My tears were running down my cheeks.... (SIGH~~~~~~~) Take that bad feeling away from me.

sky way rainbow

Sunday, May 8, 2011

clothing and colours

hurm... This a photo I took a few months ago. I was drying my clothes... from one angle I saw colourful views, so I took my hp and took the picture from that angle, but not as beautiful as naked saw it.

About my plan to do online business, and I have interests in tailoring. Maybe I really SHOULD pursue my interests in that.... :P


What are things that have big potential to sell online??
1. Art / Painting / Drawing?
2. Handicraft
3. Hand made bags?
4. Clothing?
5. Photo?

Friday, May 6, 2011

thinking about... doing business online

Money.. money... money.... what can I do to earn more money?? walking around doing some leisure brainstorming... I've decided to do business online. But.. WHAT?? what kind of items I want to sell online?? hmm.. give me some idea please.....

Sunday, March 27, 2011

have we ever think about it?

Have ever we think about it? About what... About death. As I gone through loss of family members and a son, made me think about death. Death is not far. It's just as near to us as our life. No one ever think about death until it happened to people dearest to us, or we experience life threatening situation. Right? Actually, our life is really vulnerable, no matter how advance our technology or science taught us. No one escapes death. You are a liar if you think you can escape it, or maybe you think you can turn into vampire or other monster that you think is immortal. LIAR!!!

Actually, death is the thing that we should think about before it comes. Because when it comes, it doesn't give warning, or knock on the door. No one knows when the time is up. But one thing I love about death is that, I don't have to struggle anymore. What ever happens in the hereafter is decided. But the thing is are we prepared? As a muslim, hereafter is place where all human race are being question. No matter what your opinion about death, no one ever really seen a dead person rise from the down under to tell you what he/she had been through. NO ONE. So for me, death is the point of no return. And there, we are being responsible for everything we have done in this world. Big or small. I don't know if afterlife is serene or chaotic. Because no one ever rise from the grave to tell you how is it there. Tears are no more to be shed there. Cause it doesn't mean a thing anymore. For people who think about it, about death, please think for a moment, IF WE DIE, NOTHING HAPPEN IN THE GRAVE(HEREAFTER)? REALLY??? WHO CAN GIVE YOU DEFINITE ANSWER?

I really believe that, we will meet the creator who created us... please think about it. I miss the calling of The Almighty.. (Forgive me Ya Allah).

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

it's hard to write again

Since my last blog, a lot had happened. And suddenly i read my own blog. Well, it was a surprise to say that i even a have a gut to write for other to read. Anyway, it's time to start anew. A new starting point of life. I want to forget the sad things in my life, and start a journey to get a new path to anew happy life with my beloved husband. My back sore, :). Anyway, the question is, what to start with? The time is now, only the 'product' ... well well well... may take a bit of time to brainstorm... ok...