happiness that long lost and i longed for.....

I thought I've moved on and have started anew. I am so wrong. Each time I see a pregnant woman, or a new born baby, my heart ache. I was once almost have my own baby. And during the time of pregnancy I was so overwhelmed and it was the happiest moments in my life. It felt like dream. I just couldn't believe I was conceiving. No one knew how happy I was in between believing and unbelieving. Oh Al-Mighty God, only You understand how I feel now. I really want that happiness back.