Friday, September 17, 2010

Heart beat away...

Just can't believe. In another 10 days, I'm going to be a man's wife. How's that feels like? I will be sleeping next to a person that I love so dearly. Hmm.. That's kind of scary, don't you think? Because I am used to sleeping alone and have all the bed to myself, all the blanket, all the pillow to myself. Next thing I know, I'll be sharing everything... hmm.. scary..

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Another EMPTY day

This another empty day, that I failed to fill it with activities of learning, or ibadah. In a muslim's life, other activities other than seeking sustenance, gaining knowledge or ibadah, is consider a waste of precious time in this temporary dunya. If we look at the scholars and the companions of the prophet, they hardly had time to be wasted, or anytime for entertainment. There were time to spread the teachings, time for ibadah, time for family, time to administrate, time to gain sustenance, but... there were no time for merely entertainment. How they, consume their lives for only to search for the love of Allah. Man! I really envy them. I really ENVY them. I do not envy the world leader today, I do not envy the celebrities today, but I envy those who dedicated their life for the GOAL of meeting Allah. Subhanallah.

Monday, September 6, 2010

What is my colour today?

What is my colour today? which colour can represent FORGETFULNESS... and HOPELESSNESS? Not a bad day, but a 'running here and there'-day. Never done that before. Not like this.

Ok. What's the colour I see today? It is BLUE. I guess nothing special today happened so I labeled it BLUE. Let us see what can we comprehend about the colour blue.
1. Earth is the Blue Planet.
2. The sea is BLUE in color.
3. The sky is blue in daylight. (why?) Please refer to wikipedia.
4. Some people have BLUE eyes. That's fascinating and charming.
Hmmm anything else?

ok... now from websites:


Blue suggests importance and confidence. It is a colour linked with intelligence and stability. In Iran, blue is the colour of mourning.

The colour blue

2. SAYSS>>>>>

Blue is the coolest color - the color of the sky, ocean, sleep, twilight. The ancient Egyptians used lapis lazuli to represent heaven. Blue symbolizes the Virgin Mary. A pure blue is the color of inspiration, sincerity and spirituality. Blue is often the chosen color by conservative people. Blue is the calming color. That makes it a wonderful color to use in the home, especially for babies. Blue is so soothing that is a good choice for pajamas. Dark blue is the color of truth and moderation. A blue iris means your friendship is very important to me. Wednesday's color is blue. Blue gemstones to wear to feel calm are blue sapphire and blue topaz. Lapis lazuli and azurite are said to heighten psychic power.

Turquoise is the symbol of youth, both the color and the gemstone. This color has a soothing affect. Turquoise is the color of communication. It contains the growth quality of green with the blue quality of communication. Turquoise has long been used in amulets to provide protection, health, confidence and strength.

Aqua is the color of high ideals.

Blue Energy

Blue gives a feeling of distance. Artists use it to to show perspective. This is a good way to understand the energy of the color blue - it allows us to look beyond and increase our perspective outward. It contains a cool vibration that is helpful to communication.

The vibration if blue can be used to open energy flow where it is blocked. Using blue to relax will encourage feelings of communication and peace.

Put some blue in your life when you want:

  • calm and relaxation to counteract chaos or agitation
  • to open the flow of communication
  • to broaden your perspective in learning new information
  • solitude and peace

Blue gem stone properties

Blue gemstones promote peace and are used to calm ragged emotions. They are used to provide relief to people who have difficulty sleeping or who have nightmares. They offer inspiration and enhance the quality of communication.


It's a countdown... to my holiday and to my wedding day. :) Can't hardly wait. 10 more days to go to my holiday and 21 day to go to my wedding day. 21 day... hmmm wish time could go much more faster.

Anyway, today, sitting with my friends, I did felt a little under-achieved than them. Well, to think of it, it was my choice anyway. I didn't want to further my studies, and chose to be a average person. I don't think I'm better than anyone, because I don't have degree, and I don't the gut to pursue anything my heart desire. This life is such an adventure. I just don't to be tie down to the norm. Anyhow, I let myself to become a submission to this pathetic life (That's what I think this life is). Lately, (actually about a few months back), I thought of something. Something I want to become and do in this life. Not just to be average people with average achievements. I need to start thinking BIG. How to start thinking BIG?? It is not because of the quantity of the pay-check I'm thinking of. It is more about my family, and the time I want to have with them. The liberation of working alone ( I mean self-employed).

Freedom, and time consuming work. :) To be continue....

Friday, September 3, 2010

Energy.. I need you

Since I was young, my favourite past time is SLEEPING. Not because that I was lazy, it was because I have heart illness. And it caused me to feel tired all the time, and the antidote was SLEEP. After operation, I became normal, but still I can't get rid of the sleeping habit. The irony is that sleep eases me, and give the pleasure none of the other activities can ever give me. Am I sick? I don't think so. Anyway, sleep is a blessing. hehehehe. I know many people out there have the same view.

Time and time again..

Hmmm... Try not to do count down, but unconsciously, my mind just keep track of time and did the count down. Anxious? Nervous? Actually, I can't hardly wait to meet my love again. He is my partner? (should I use term 'partner'?). My heart and soul is aching to see him. But somehow, unlike the movie, I manage (Thank God) to stay on with reality and live my everyday life accordingly. Thanks to DISTANCE and home education. Miss him time to time again. Want him time to time again. Just want to forget about the TIME that pass so slowly.